Still in the Middle

You already know that I’m in the middle of motherhood.  Well, I’m also in the middle of moving. Brian and I have been blessed with our first home—a townhouse—and we’ve been moving in stages, all week long.

I shouldn’t be surprised that moving has exposed sinful desires in my heart: specifically, the desire for the “perfect” house. This was revealed through my indecisiveness in making decorating decisions. My husband Brian asked me some helpful questions. I thought that I would share them with you.

1)    Are you content and grateful for what God has provided, or are you thinking about the next or better thing you want?

2)    What are you more aware of: God’s amazing provision of our current house and furniture, or the material possessions that you don’t have?

3)    What purpose do you want your home to serve?  Are you more desirous of impressing others with your decorating skill or serving them—and glorifying God—through hospitality?

Through Brian’s questions, God gave me grace to repent from the selfish desires in my heart. And I continue to repent on a daily basis.

God also used my sons to help tear down the idol of a “perfect” house, literally. Liam scratched up my newly painted walls. Owen came behind smearing the scratch with peanut butter and jelly. To top it off, my new laminate floor already has a lovely scratch from dining room to doorway.

I’m in the middle of motherhood, moving, and heart work. God has been good to me. The boundary lines have truly fallen in pleasant places (Psalm 16:6).